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Last night you came home to me, drunk,
and said, “Baby, where’ve I hit you?”

With your words? I said,
In places that know no healing.
With your hands and feet and whip and stick,
in places so sore they’ve stopped bleeding.

So used to your fists,
I flinched when you held my hand
but I let you.

So used to your foul mouth,
I broke down when you kissed me
but I let you.

I took what you gave me and called it
love.
I caged myself and called that
protection.
I survived with my silence and called that
acceptance.
Because, that is what They taught me.
They said,
embrace the fist because that fist opens up to bring you bun on the table,
choke on the grip, for a while, but recover without a cough because,
that’s the grip that will loosen up to shield you.

Give in, give in, give in
because that is what you body does.
Woman, learn spread your legs
not your wings
scream and plead
don’t stand and speak
caress the hand that slapped you
beat you
thrashed you
break down in the arms that strangled you
because that man, that hand, that arm
Will protect you from harm.
They said,
You’d do me no harm.
You said, you’d do me no harm.

You said, you’d do me no harm
so nevermind my broken arm, you’d do me no harm.
You said, you’d do me no harm
so I won’t ring the alarm, you’d do me no harm.

You said you’d do me no harm
But that’s all that you’ve done

Is it that easy to forget
What you said just last night
When you scanned through my stiff body
For all the scars you’d left on it
In that darkness, didn’t I hear you say you were sorry
That you loved me and you’d bring all this to an end
But then
Again
It rains
Your hard-knuckled fists pound down on my brains
As you pour every bit of mad rage from your veins
Monster, you’re anger is never appeased
You could cut me to pieces and still not be pleased
And no matter where I run, you’ll still hunt me down
Cause you love me, you need me, you’d do me no harm

By the way, Hey “They”
You see all of this, right?
My saviour’s out to kill me and you’re still keeping your quiet

And while of all these moments you choose now to hold your ever flapping tongue

This man, this hand, this arm –will only learn to do me more harm

And you, what was my fault
Remind me again
Did I put too much or too little sweet in your tea
Was I out for ten more seconds than the magnanimous ten minutes you lend me?
Oh was I out being the whore you’d made up in your head
Or was it simply a mistake to wake up from that bed
To see yet another day

Cause you knew one of these days
I’d see the marvel that’s me
Who’s not as weak or as feeble
As she’s made to believe
But I’m done being the victim
I’m done with this chase
I’m no longer running
‘ll stand up to your face
And may be I’ve just caught this insanity of yours
Cause I now know for sure, you will harm me no more

I said, you will do me no harm
Lay down your fucking arms; you will do me no harm I said, you will do me no harm
Go ring your alarms Hun; you will do me no harm
I said, you will do me no harm
Cause that’s all that you’ve done
And you’ve done just Enough.

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